Not enough ka?

Assalamualaikum.

After working two weeks without any off, then last Sunday is my time.

Finally!

So, i thought i can rest for a full day duh.

Just makan, tidur, makan, tidur.

Don't blame me.

It's a best options ever that i needed.

But on Saturday night, my friend WhatsApp, that she wanna hang out with me.

Anyway, i owe her a birthday treat... like a month already.

Nak tak nak kena jumpa gak lah.

Wake up, wake up. Jangan malas.

And we makes a deal to meet on 10 am at KL Central.

That morning, pergi lah ke LRT from Damai to KL Central.

Not too crowded.

But seat is full. So i just stand at end of the train.

Where you can see the rail.

Because malas nak tengok orang keluar masuk, keluar masuk actually.

Yeah, likes few station to go...

Suddenly on the ride, after Masjid Jamek station to Pasar Seni...  

Something wrong with my body.

Not right in every part of it.

... I felt really cold.

Dizziness attacked.

My both hand became numb.

And my view are blurred.

Looks like no blood rush to my brain. Hypo!

I gonna faint, and i knew that.

But i tried to be stronger than the Hulk and think something positive.

Alhamdulillah, in a minutes. The train stop at Pasar Seni.

I quickly grab my bag, and took a seat there.

I inhale and exhale like there is no tomorrow.

Don't really care about people around me.

Or i missed only one station more to my destination.

I can't really move, just only can put my hand at my chest.  And continued to think anything positive.

I need saving those energy.

Or i will faint and there will a big trouble.

After five minute, the numb at my hand slowly dissapear.

My face bit warm.

But not to the dizziness. It became more and more stressing.

I'm ok with it. As long as there is no cold attacked like before.

I took out my water bottle and takes a few sip.

Badly, no candy in bag. Which i forget to top up after a month of Ramdhan.

Looks like i need that later.

I tried to stand up. Balance myself. And looks like i'm normal again. 

Alhamdulillah sangat.

And tak lama pastu, next train sampai. Banyak free seat, and i just go with it.

I can't cancel this appointmet.

Kesian pulak dia.

I just can say sorry to her because of the lateness.

.

Sempat beli slice of blueberry cheese cake from Secret Recipe's. Her favorite actually.

What a birhday celebratiuon without a cake right?

Hhehehhe...

 Makan together, i belanja la kan. Promise is a promise. And we had a very nice day.

Because i can deal with the dizziness a bit.

I can do it!

She give me this present. So suprising! For Raya she said.
Very nice of you..
And it's a perfume. Thanks my friend.

Balik tuh, around 3 pm dah memang out.

Rasa exhausted gila. Dengan kepala pon berat semacam.

Jalan pon melayang-layang.

Balik rumah. Solat Zohor terus landoing atas katil.

I need my nap time really bad.

My health is decreasing. I donno why i get this cold attcaked again. Because, that morning, i already ate my breakfast. 

Two slice bread and few cereal. Not enough ka?

Hmmm... Memang suddenly benda ini. 

Last time kena ialah masa before Ramadhan.

Itu pon masa kat rumah.

Luckily rumah memang stored banyak food.

So, recover better.

And yesterday, Monday, my last day puasa enam. Alhamdulillah.

Even pagi-pagi lagi before masuk kerja tuh dah rasa macam-macam.

Well, i pass!

And now. Raya time.

Yeah.

Selamat hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin semua.

Can't i just be me?

Assalamualaikum.

When diorang said i'm too rough in certain thing, that i need to be a bit sopan about it.
I just...
Muka blurred.
Nak sopan cane tu?
And mostly, perlu ke?

My parents besarkan me to be an independent women.
Which i should not susahkan anyone includes them clearly.... My life visi dan misi.
So, here i am.
I protect what i should protect.
And be positive.
Be possible.
Be strong.
And bukan jadi hulk semata-mata.

Ada paham?

I pernah tried be the sopan they all ever wanted.
A year. Last year sebenarnya.
Which I stopped riding my bike.
Pakai jubah and skirt things.
Tak banyak carik gaduh.
And ada lembut sikit ar.

Tapi tetiba cam banyak sangat issue nya.
Nak cerita pon too personal.
So lama-lama macam, tak boleh jadik ni.
This is not me.
And this sort of problems is not going berterusan.
Boleh jatuh mental.
So i just be me .

Whatever they want to said, 

Can't i just be me?

If I did something wrong, please nasihat and tegurlah.
That I'm too rough and boleh bawak korang sentap menyentap ke kan.
Sebab my action is louder than my words.
Im not gonna perang mulut, tapi sedetik dua tibai je pan keras tu atas kepala.
Bagi concussion pastu amnesia, pastu baru korangnya otak centre sikit.
Heheheee ...

Close up with my adik

Assalamualaikum.

She and me is like, C nd S.
Crazy and simple.
And both of us are independent.
.... We support each other from the back.
Even  i know she always kikis my duit.
Yeah, itulah kegunaan seorang kakak yer.
But i still love her.
My adikkkk!

And we not duduk in same house. She now stayed at our house in Johor.
And me at KL.
Only Whatsapp adalah teman terbaik.
And from here we felt like, i touch you you poke me.
Hhehehheh....

So i let you read our conversation.
In this very exclusive post.
Yang private sangat, kita keep close la yer.
So here we are.

Bye!